It hurts so much that your not here. I look at your brother and sister and I see you and not only I hurt for you, I also hurt for them, I see the sadness in their eyes and knowing that their lives have changed forever and that they will never feel true joy and happiness makes my heart and soul break over and over again. All I ever wanted was for my children to be safe, healthy and happy and that just seems impossible now. Only God knows best.