My beloved Anuskha,
I cannot believe five years ago today we lost you. There are some losses you never get over and loosing you is it for us. We didn’t see it coming and it happened right before our eyes. Never did I ever imagine our life without you.
I want you to know how sorry we are for your last days on this earth. There are so many things I wish I could change. Please forgive us if we did wrong by you. I wish I had known better and did better by you.
I want you to know that we will be forever heartbroken. You not being here with us has created a hole in our hearts that can never be replaced or filled. Our family will never be the same without you.
I want you to know that the time passing have made me realise that being this heartbroken is okay. Many may not understand but I think in this way you live on in us and it is also a way to honour you. It keeps our love for you alive in us and it gives you a voice in a world hell –bent on forgetting. I promise never to deny your existence.
I want you to know that every day I wish I could break apart this invisible boundary that is between us. I just want to have you in my arms again and tell you how much I love and miss you and want you here with us. I want to say out loud that I am so proud of you and your accomplishments. I think you would have been a remarkable young women. You definetly have tought me somethings about life and made me a better person.
I want you to know that we are moving on … only because that’s what is expected of us. Please don’t be disappointed with us, I hope you are moving on, you must be busy babysitting….I can’t bear to think of you unhappy and in pain. I am looking forward to our reunion.
I want you to know that your soul remains in us, forever enriching us. You left a legacy that reminds us to love, laugh and live life ….and as challenging as it is, it will continue through us. Ava and Alec is making sure of it. They miss there big sister.
I want you to know how you will always be a precious gift given to us and how grateful we are to have had the opportunity to learn from and experience life with you. We wish we could have had you for much much longer. We definitely needed our warrior princess.
I want you to know that our fate is forever entwined and will be forever connected even if it by an invisible cord, not even death can take you away from us.
“What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.”-Helen Keller.
We love you Anuskha, Rest in Peace.
This candle was first lit on the 29th of November 2018 and will burn for 94 years 6 months and 13 days.